I remember most of last night, and had a great time until I drank too much. Don’t want to drink again for a long time last night was the first time in about 2 months. The horribleness of the experience has definitely reminded be why I don’t like doing drugs all that much. I also don’t like blacking out and feeling like i’m not in control of body. I’m always afraid of things I might say when I black out. Also I really hate when your talking to people and you say something and it comes out wrong and sounds fucked up when you didn’t mean it in a fucked up way. I hate headaches.